Hindi tayo laging nauuwi sa mahal natin, minsan hindi rin tayo napupunta sa kapareha sa buhay. Ang buhay ay maaaring malungkot, at ang pagiging may sakit ay isang araw-araw na laban, sabi ni Kris Aquino sa kanyang post kahapon.
Kinumpisal pa niya na sa ngayon ay hindi siya nananalo sa pakikipaglaban sa kanyang karamdaman pero aniya, #bawalsumuko #tuloyanglaban.
Kalakip ng pahayag na ito ni Kris ang 13 artcards na bukod sa paglalahad ng kanyang panig ng kuwento matapos ipagtanggol ni Miguel Lorenzo Padlan, anak ng kanyang ex-boyfriend na si Dr. Mike Padlan, laban sa mga tsismis at maling impormasyon sa kanilang naging relasyon, ay sinabi rin niyang may siyam na na koleksyon na siya ng autoimmune diseases at hanggang ngayon ay meron siyang lagnat at kabilang dito ang pakikipaglaban sa lupus.
Umpisa ng kanyang mala-nobelang pagpapaliwanag : “I DO NOT LIE. My last post was written by a still angry ex girlfriend who had felt, that even for her health care, she was unimportant and not a priority. I did pay for his services as a travel doctor. This was in May 2022. Dr. Mike Padlan wasn’t the doctor who accompanied me on the flight to Houston. Yet i didn’t ask for a refund.
“After our (kuya josh, bimb, and me) bout with Covid, bimb & i were Covid long haulers- Dr Padlan did go to Houston to check on me. My mistake is that i failed to state that he flew to LA around 4X more on his own n volition- i didn’t ask for him to check on me, i would just be surprised that he’d be there. Those visits weren’t paid for, nag abono pa nga sya. Doc Mike I APOLOGIZE for NOT STATING THIS IN MY EARLIER POST.”
Binalikan din niya sa nasabing post na naalala niya ang sandali nang magising siya na binabantayan siya ni Dr. Mike.
Aniya sa unang pagkakataon sa maraming taon, nakakita siya ng isang lalaki, isang doktor, na nagbabantay sa kanya na pakiramdam niya ay ligtas siya.
Pero ibang klase aniya ang kanilang pagliligawan.
“Long Distance Relationship via WhatsApp, we were in Orange County, California so technically he was no longer a doctor. In him i saw what i had been looking for- someone i could discuss my medical issues with-my feeling of fatigue, my lack of balance, my suffering from suddenly getting dizzy then collapsing,” paliwanag niya.
Inilarawan din ni Kris ang pagiging malapit niya sa mga kamag-anak ni Dr. Mike.
“His younger sister came to visit together with ‘Pokémon’ (I’m not allowed to mention the names) who was so adorable. Doc Mike left when my 2 sons arrived. Kuya had a new playmate, and Bimb got to experience ‘dad duties,’” sabi pa niya.
Nanghingi rin siya ng tawad sa ina ni Pokemon. “I’ve apologized to the mommy of ‘Pokémon’- she was gracious and said: ‘kalimutan na natin yun, let’s just get better.’”
Naikuwento rin niyang ramdam niya ang kaligayahan ng mga bata : “Children cannot fake happiness. He slept in between Bimb & me. Kuya was beside Bimb. We fit because 2 double beds were side by side and pushed together. Sumisiksik na si ‘Pokémon’ sa kin… i felt so special.”
Ipinaliwanag din ni Kris ang pangako niya sa anak, at sinabing, oras na para magpaalam. “‘Pokémon’ reminded me that when i got home, I’d bring him and ‘Lego’ to school. I managed to fulfill that promise.”
“Meeting ‘Lego’ when i got back was unfiltered joy. He talks nonstop and asks intelligent questions,” sabi pa niya.
Palibhasa’y nangungulila raw sa dalawang anak, nagpahayag ng pagsisisi si Kris sa posibleng epekto ng mga nauna niyang pahayag sa mga bata.
“Mama Kris is VERY SORRY for making you angry and sad because of what i posted. I was wrong in not considering the impact it would have on both of you. You both brought sunshine and laughter when i most needed it. I know i am no longer deserving to be your mama Kris.
“BUT even if I had known things would end up this way- except for hurting the 2 of you, your mommy, and your tita Judith- i would still have chosen to give loving one more attempt; i can say that, because i got the chance to love you,” dagdag niya pa.
Nabanggit na rin niya ang sagot sa anak ng doctor na si Miguel na nagtanggol sa kanilang ama.
“Miguel, when i read what you wrote, instantly I reminded myself dapat hindi pumatol ang nanay sa anak. Freedom of Speech should be upheld in a true DEMOCRACY. I only defended my factual truth, because right now for me it matters,” sabi pa niya.
Ibinahagi niya ang isang taos-pusong sandali ng pakikipag-bonding sa mga bata.
Sa kasalukuyan aniya ay siyam na ang kanyang autoimmune.
“My collection of autoimmune diseases now number 9. In chronological order based on diagnosis and confirmation:
Autoimmune Thyroiditis
Chronic Spontaneous
Urticaria
EGPA (a life threatening form of vasculitis)
Systemic Sclerosis/ Scleroderma
Lupus
Rheumatoid Arthritis
Fibromyalgia
Polymyositis
Mixed Connective Tissue disease,” pag-iisa-isa niya sa kanyang mga sakit na patuloy niyang nilalabanan.
“i now have 9 autoimmune disorders- for anybody, even a doctor, a very sick partner requires much sacrifice and understanding”
Kasalukuyan daw siyang naglalagi sa malamig na bahagi ng isang hotel complex “Residences” na aniya ay “part of a hotel complex here in BGC-hardly exiting my safe zone bubble- it has a Dyson formaldehyde filtered cooling fan, a UV Care hepa filter meant for an area 3X as large, EVERYONE feels like they are freezing, apart from the AC, set at 19, I have 4 Vornado large room air circulators, and 1 more tower fan. We’ve been staying here since we arrived in Manila, but moving out soon. Doc Mike is their medical director and because of him, we were given an excellent long term.”
At habang sinusulat niya raw ang nasabing post ay may lagnat siya at “it’s expected to happen often since i’ve been diagnosed with Progressive Systemic Sclerosis aka Scleroderma, LUPUS, Polymyositis, and mixed connective tissue disease (MCTD)… my on & off low grade (37.8 to 38.6) fever refuses to leave; it’s been overstaying for more than 2 weeks now.”
May nabanggit pa siyang “doc mike & i tried to give PEACE personal effort.”
“Please notice- i spoke only for myself, 1 cannot speak for Doc Mike. BUT i do accept and understand that i loved him much more than he was capable of loving me.
Sinagot din nito ang pagtatanggol ng anak ng doktor na si Miguel : “I took the time to respond to your statements directly. Umasa pa rin ako that you didn’t know everything. So your statements came from not having seen the entire picture. I have receipts BUT why will i, in proving your allegations wrong, make people see who really is telling the truth. I did promise to be mama kris come what may.”
Sa huli ay sinabi niya na mayroon siyang pananampalataya sa kapangyarihan ng panalangin. Napakarami raw pinagaling ni Jesus. Ang autoimmune aniya ay walang lunas. Ngunit naniniwala pa rin siya na gagabayan ng Holy Spirit at kanyang mga doktor.
At hindi niya raw sinisira ang kanyang mga pangako, na babalik na may sapat na lakas para kina Josh at Bimb.
Umulan ng dasal sa nasabing post ni Kris pero may mga nagpapayo ring tutukan na lang niya ang kanyang pagpapagaling at idaan sa pribadong pag-uusap ang problema nila ng kanyang ex na doktor.